October's Life Summary

Recently, I read an article "don't let writing be a wilting suit". It said if an apple a day kept the doctor away, the why nurture to write a page daily. 

By writing daily, it was possible to grow up with abundance of knowledge, excellent vocabulary, become more creative which can thought out of the boxes.  

I was so inspired after that and wished to pen down about daily life which mean something special, unique and evoked my emotions. I just spoke to myself for reflection purposes. 

Below were my writing voices:

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10 October 2016. That day was not the smooth day for me as I discovered a big mistake for my data analysis.

Few parts of analysis process that I worked for 1 week were redundant and needed to be remove. Some parts needed to add more. 

Honestly, I don’t have the good relationship with SmartPLS, software for analyzing the data. It’s not my area of interest too. But I must remain optimistic and decided to try my best.

Oh no, it’s not an easy job. There had been days I felt very confident learning the SmartPLS and other days I felt very lost and hardly made any progress at all. 

No matter what, I should work hard!

Luckily at this data analysis stage, I met Sri Lanka neighbor that helped me a lot. 

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It always reminded me how beautiful the views of UUM.

11 October 2016, at the bamboo jungle and became one of my walking trails right now. I suddenly realized there were so much best views and nice people that make me smile instead of depressed not-so smooth Phd journey

“It doesn’t matter we don’t have the best for everything, but we make the best of everything we have”

I believed that’s all I need to do in life, isn’t it?

Lets’ learn brave and kind to myself ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡

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12 October 2016, quickly woke up while receiving messages from Phd supervisor in oversea for furthering her postdoctoral study during midnight.

I blamed her for lacking times to check my writings and concerning my progress since she started her postdoctoral study.

But that night all blaming were gone as I chose to put myself into her shoes. I would have exactly made the same choice like her. I learned that she also suffered for meeting mentor’s expectations and adapted to the new environments.

I even send the motivating quotes for her as encouragement. Hopefully the motivating quotes brought warmth and hopes for her especially in the foreign land.

I shall tolerance more, right?

That night I felt close to her. On that night, she was not the Phd supervisor that owned the authority and power to control me. She was the ordinary postdoctoral student that worked hard for producing good writings. 

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13 October 2016, simple plain porridge as dinner. I tended to seasoned with mince pork bean paste, which was one of my comfort food.

This food’s value was beyond how good it tasted already.

Mama used to prepare this style of porridge for me. Foods always transported me back to the past.

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14 October 2016, using leftover mince pork bean paste for making “Bak Jio Mee Pok”-a type of foods invented by my own uncle. 

No matter where I went, I always missed it. This included my other sisters too. So, every time I saw the mince pork bean paste in the supermarket shelves, I surely grabbed few back homes.

Then, I attended sushi workshop of D’ Hospitality Restaurant. I knew, you all would say making sushi so easy, it’s not necessary to learn.

But it’s one of the reasons to out from my room for having brain break. I didn’t want to touch Phd works that day.

I had learnt several types of sushi and also the right ways to roll the sushi. Pressure was damn important to determine the nice sushi and sushi cutting.

Feeling like proud Mama seeing these masterpieces!

Although the ingredients were very simple and could get at anywhere,

Although I could learnt sushi making process from YouTube,

Although the instructors were not fluent in Malay and English speaking,

But I gained most satisfaction at the workshop compared at homes.

I could sense their sincerity in teaching the participants. I could observe their harmony relationships with their organizing team members. 

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15 October 2016, read these few quotes on Facebook and it was really thought provoking

Someone that really put you in their hearts, will make the first move to apologize, apologizing didn’t mean he or she made the mistakes, but he or she didn’t want to lose you

Someone that really put you in their hearts will contact you first because he or she missed you.

It reminded me how I thought my friendship. Wen Liann, Chik Fei, Yang Bo, Miss Wong, Crystal, Shu Fang, Marina, Safiah contacted me occasionally to maintain our bonding.

I reply their message sometimes because I didn’t want to lose them.

Forgiving didn’t mean big heart but because he or she didn’t want to lose you

Not forgive someone, not because of how deep he or she hurt you but the heart for someone was gone.

I always not forgive the friends when I saw their true colors, attitudes and behaviors that might not similar as I normally did. This automatically created a gap between us.

All the good impressions for the particular friends were gone. So, I chose to break the bond of friendship between us. I never ever regret but the awkwardness is inevitable. 

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17 October 2016

Almost 2 days laptop no WiFi connection. No articles searching, no Youtube videos, No blogs reading. I can’t breathe at all. I suffered panic attacks.

I never knew that one day I had social media obsessions.

When I learned that Information Technology department helped to solve the problem, I quickly went there.

On the way to the Information Technology department, here’s the conversation with my Phd friend.

“Aiya, can’t do my Phd works when no WiFi”

“My main concern is can’t watch Hong Kong drama. I desperately want to watch the last episode of one of the Hong Kong drama that I used to watch every night”

“ Hahahahaha. It doesn’t matter not sending emails for the supervisors”

“Absolutely correct! You really know me very well”

Both of us burst into laughter. 

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If you’ve 5 minutes, listen to this song!

18 October 2016, entire day play this song, Kayee’s “Can You See” after watching the last episode of Law and Order (律政强人）

I had soft spot towards this type of relaxing and soft-singing song. Feeling comfortable, peaceful and quiet when listening. 

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19 October 2016

Realizing Malay friend always loved to message me using various short form Malay words. Some more, all her Malay words were Kedah pronunciation.

“Sy mai opis dh…nasi td mkn dgn Solehah plk…hehe dia sllu jugak bli nasi lmk kat sy pagi”

“Klu dah buka saya pi”

“Pjgka baris u”

“Sekejap ja artu”

“haha ada ja...satgila…tay person x…semlm da”

“tula…saja nak hlg stress tu yg jalan…klu sehari xla kcu jadual sgt

“untgkla….haha…eskkna pi kja…kja xhabis….huhu

“duk siap kja prof tiap ari cari”

“tula, biar depa decide”

“nak ajkpi pos kat chglun”

“jumpa blkla…xcakap tgn nak bawak…huhu”

“haha…ya latu…tdo…zzzz”

How many that you could understand?

I took 5 minutes to comprehend her messages. Sometimes, I even asked the very simple and straightforward questions like “what’s pi”? “what’s opis”? “what’s mai”? what’s kja”? “what’s depa”? “what’s tdo”, “what’s satgila”, “what’s ayaq”? ““what’s hang”? what’s habaq”?

Here’re the answers:

Opis=office

Mai=datang (come)

Kja=kerja (works)

Depa=mereka (they)

Tdo=tidur (sleeping)

Satgila=sekejap nanti (later)

Ayaq=air (water)

Hang=kamu (you)

Habaq=beritahu (tell)

Right now, I still struggled when reading Kedah Malay messages. But I believed I read more, it should get easier. I sincere hope that.

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20 October 2016

Read someone Dayre that said “what do you want to do before you die?”

After deep consideration, my answer was “spend times with the loved one- Papa, Mama and siblings”

There’s a saying “金银财帛有用尽之日，佳肴美酒亦有散席之时，唯有亲情方可留在心中”

Not loving my family members by spending little times with them was my biggest regret currently.

But this video tell me

“Everyday is a clean slate, do the things you’ll regret not doing” It’s never too late to happen”

Another follower also reminded me:

“Everyday is new beginning and new start to do what we want and what we love, so forget the past and start from bottom and all that need believing.”

Yes, I firmly believed I’ll spend more times with family members in the future.

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23 October 2016, Sri Lanka dorm room neighbour’s Mi Maggi Goreng.

This home cooked and simple Maggi Goreng utterly delicious even though no high dose of Wok Hei, no aromatic, the noodles and ingredients were not blend harmoniously with each other.

It was her token appreciation meals for me that gave souvenirs from Hatyai yesterday. She always showed gratitude and acknowledged my effort for helping her. 

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Thailand cup noodles packaging

I shifted it to the rice cooker for cooking 

24 October 2016, Second time trying Thailand tomyam noodles. Definitely it was one of the best instant tomyam noodles I had eaten.

I like how the tomyam soup had the good balance of spicy, sour and savoury. I took longer hours to forget the beautiful taste of this type of good tomyam soup that lingered on my tongue.

Sadly, it could be found at Thailand only. 

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“Wen Jie Jie, your hospital is caught fire”

“Ya la, only know you care for me”

“The ICU got burned”

“Haha, they say the gas meletup”

“Wahhh”

“Wen Jie Jie 暗示no one concern her”

“Aiyo so old masih macam itu”

“Haha ya la, my friend all watsapp me this morning but not my family members”

“Ya la my friend know the news faster than me, I stay in office also don’t know, but I’m not affected la”

“Apuu you never tell me you work at hospital laaa”

“Wah Fei Fei you never ask where I work. I mahu nangis”

“I talk phone to you lehhh”

“You didn’t tell me”

“Hahaha”

That’s my family chat, most funny so far and I laughed loudly. Siblings separated with each other but wastapp connected us closely.

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28 October 2016, having severe menstrual cramp today and trying this Korea Ginseng menstrual pad that I bought in Hong Kong 1 year ago.

It cured my cramp effectively within half an hour. It totally replaced menstrual painkillers that I used to.

No more applying “Cap Lang Balsem Gosok” on my stomach today. Korea Ginseng menstrual successfully heated my stomach. I felt relief and comfortable.

After that, I realized it only available in Hong Kong pharmacy outlets. Malaysia in fact quite hard to find. OMG… 

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29 October 2016, third times cooking this corns & carrot porridge. Feeling proud of myself able to cook such creamy textures of porridge like I had in Hong Kong. I finally mastered this type of skills. 

That's all. Hopefully I managed to sustain this writing voices post for incoming months!