Recently, I read an article "don't let writing be a wilting suit". It said if an apple a day kept the doctor away, the why nurture to write a page daily.
By writing daily, it was possible to grow up with abundance of knowledge, excellent vocabulary, become more creative which can thought out of the boxes.
I was so inspired after that and wished to pen down about daily life which mean something special, unique and evoked my emotions. I just spoke to myself for reflection purposes.
Below were my writing voices:
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10 October 2016. That day was not the smooth day for me as I discovered a big mistake for my data analysis.
Few parts of analysis process that I worked for 1 week were redundant and needed to be remove. Some parts needed to add more.
Honestly,
I don’t have the good relationship with SmartPLS, software for analyzing the
data. It’s not my area of interest too. But I must remain optimistic and
decided to try my best.
Oh
no, it’s not an easy job. There had been days I felt very confident learning
the SmartPLS and other days I felt very lost and hardly made any progress at
all.
No
matter what, I should work hard!
Luckily
at this data analysis stage, I met Sri Lanka neighbor that helped me a lot.
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It always reminded me how beautiful the views of UUM.
11
October 2016, at the bamboo jungle and became one of my walking trails right
now. I suddenly realized there were so much best views and nice people that
make me smile instead of depressed not-so smooth Phd journey
“It
doesn’t matter we don’t have the best for everything, but we make the best of
everything we have”
I
believed that’s all I need to do in life, isn’t it?
Lets’
learn brave and kind to myself ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡
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12 October 2016, quickly woke up
while receiving messages from Phd supervisor in oversea for furthering
her postdoctoral study during midnight.
I blamed her for lacking times to
check my writings and concerning my progress since she started her postdoctoral
study.
But that night all blaming were gone
as I chose to put myself into her shoes. I would have exactly made the same
choice like her. I learned that she also suffered for meeting mentor’s
expectations and adapted to the new environments.
I even send the motivating quotes
for her as encouragement. Hopefully the motivating quotes brought warmth and
hopes for her especially in the foreign land.
I shall tolerance more, right?
That night I felt close to her. On
that night, she was not the Phd supervisor that owned the authority and power
to control me. She was the ordinary postdoctoral student that worked hard for
producing good writings.
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13 October 2016, simple plain
porridge as dinner. I tended to seasoned with mince pork bean paste, which was
one of my comfort food.
This food’s value was beyond how
good it tasted already.
Mama used to prepare this style of
porridge for me. Foods always transported me back to the past.
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14
October 2016, using leftover mince pork bean paste for making “Bak Jio Mee Pok”-a
type of foods invented by my own uncle.
No
matter where I went, I always missed it. This included my other sisters too.
So, every time I saw the mince pork bean paste in the supermarket shelves, I
surely grabbed few back homes.
Then,
I attended sushi workshop of D’ Hospitality Restaurant. I knew, you all would
say making sushi so easy, it’s not necessary to learn.
But
it’s one of the reasons to out from my room for having brain break. I didn’t
want to touch Phd works that day.
I
had learnt several types of sushi and also the right ways to roll the sushi.
Pressure was damn important to determine the nice sushi and sushi cutting.
Feeling like proud Mama seeing these masterpieces!
Although the ingredients were very simple and could
get at anywhere,
Although I could learnt sushi making process from
YouTube,
Although the instructors were not fluent in Malay
and English speaking,
But I gained most satisfaction at the workshop
compared at homes.
I could sense their sincerity in teaching the
participants. I could observe their harmony relationships with their organizing
team members.
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15 October 2016, read these few quotes on Facebook and
it was really thought provoking
Someone that really put you in their hearts, will
make the first move to apologize, apologizing didn’t mean he or she made the
mistakes, but he or she didn’t want to lose you
Someone that really put you in their hearts will
contact you first because he or she missed you.
It reminded me how I thought my friendship. Wen Liann, Chik Fei, Yang Bo, Miss Wong, Crystal,
Shu Fang, Marina, Safiah contacted me occasionally to maintain our bonding.
I reply their message sometimes because I didn’t
want to lose them.
Forgiving didn’t mean big heart but because he or
she didn’t want to lose you
Not forgive someone, not because of how deep he or
she hurt you but the heart for someone was gone.
I always not forgive the friends when I saw their
true colors, attitudes and behaviors that might not similar as I normally did.
This automatically created a gap between us.
All the good impressions for the particular friends
were gone. So, I chose to break the bond of friendship between us. I never ever
regret but the awkwardness
is inevitable.
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17 October 2016
Almost 2 days laptop no WiFi connection. No articles
searching, no Youtube videos, No blogs reading. I can’t breathe at all. I
suffered panic attacks.
I never knew that one day I had social media
obsessions.
When I learned that Information Technology
department helped to solve the problem, I quickly went there.
On the way to the Information Technology department,
here’s the conversation with my Phd friend.
“Aiya, can’t do my Phd works when no WiFi”
“My main concern is can’t watch Hong Kong drama. I
desperately want to watch the last episode of one of the Hong Kong drama that I
used to watch every night”
“ Hahahahaha. It doesn’t matter not sending emails
for the supervisors”
“Absolutely correct! You really know me very well”
Both of us burst into laughter.
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If you’ve 5 minutes, listen to this song!
18 October 2016, entire day play this song, Kayee’s “Can You See”
after watching the last episode of Law and Order (律政强人）
I had soft spot towards this type of relaxing and
soft-singing song. Feeling comfortable, peaceful and quiet when listening.
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19 October 2016
Realizing Malay friend always loved to message me
using various short form Malay words. Some more, all her Malay words were Kedah
pronunciation.
“Sy mai opis dh…nasi td mkn dgn Solehah plk…hehe dia
sllu jugak bli nasi lmk kat sy pagi”
“Klu dah buka saya pi”
“Pjgka baris u”
“Sekejap ja artu”
“haha ada ja...satgila…tay person x…semlm da”
“tula…saja nak hlg stress tu yg jalan…klu sehari xla
kcu jadual sgt
“untgkla….haha…eskkna pi kja…kja xhabis….huhu
“duk siap kja prof tiap ari cari”
“tula, biar depa decide”
“nak ajkpi pos kat chglun”
“jumpa blkla…xcakap tgn nak bawak…huhu”
“haha…ya latu…tdo…zzzz”
How many that you could understand?
I took 5 minutes to comprehend her messages.
Sometimes, I even asked the very simple and straightforward questions like “what’s
pi”? “what’s opis”? “what’s mai”? what’s kja”? “what’s depa”? “what’s tdo”, “what’s
satgila”, “what’s ayaq”? ““what’s hang”? what’s habaq”?
Here’re the answers:
Opis=office
Mai=datang (come)
Kja=kerja (works)
Depa=mereka (they)
Tdo=tidur (sleeping)
Satgila=sekejap nanti (later)
Ayaq=air (water)
Hang=kamu (you)
Habaq=beritahu (tell)
Right now, I still struggled when reading Kedah
Malay messages. But I believed I read more, it should get easier. I sincere
hope that.
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20 October 2016
Read someone Dayre that said “what do you want to do
before you die?”
After deep consideration, my answer was “spend times
with the loved one- Papa, Mama and siblings”
There’s a saying “金银财帛有用尽之日，佳肴美酒亦有散席之时，唯有亲情方可留在心中”
Not loving my family members by spending little
times with them was my biggest regret currently.
But this video tell me
“Everyday is a clean slate, do the things you’ll
regret not doing” It’s never too late to happen”
Another follower also reminded me:
“Everyday is new beginning
and new start to do what we want and what we love, so forget the past and start
from bottom and all that need believing.”
Yes, I firmly believed I’ll spend more times with family
members in the future.
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23 October 2016, Sri Lanka dorm room neighbour’s Mi Maggi Goreng.
This home cooked and simple Maggi Goreng utterly
delicious even though no high dose of Wok Hei, no aromatic, the noodles and ingredients
were not blend harmoniously with each other.
It was her token appreciation meals for me that gave
souvenirs from Hatyai yesterday. She always showed gratitude and acknowledged my
effort for helping her.
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Thailand cup noodles packaging
I shifted it to the rice cooker for cooking
24 October 2016, Second time trying Thailand tomyam noodles. Definitely
it was one of the best instant tomyam noodles I had eaten.
I like how the tomyam soup had the good balance of spicy,
sour and savoury. I took longer hours to forget the beautiful taste of this
type of good tomyam soup that lingered on my tongue.
Sadly, it could be found at Thailand only.
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“Wen Jie Jie, your hospital is caught fire”
“Ya la, only know you care for me”
“The ICU got burned”
“Haha, they say the gas meletup”
“Wahhh”
“Wen Jie Jie 暗示no
one concern her”
“Aiyo so old masih macam itu”
“Haha ya la, my friend all watsapp me this morning
but not my family members”
“Ya la my friend know the news faster than me, I stay
in office also don’t know, but I’m not affected la”
“Apuu you never tell me you work at hospital laaa”
“Wah Fei Fei you never ask where I work. I mahu
nangis”
“I talk phone to you lehhh”
“You didn’t tell me”
“Hahaha”
That’s my family chat, most funny so far and I laughed
loudly. Siblings separated with each other but wastapp connected us closely.
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28 October 2016, having
severe menstrual cramp today and trying this Korea Ginseng menstrual pad that I
bought in Hong Kong 1 year ago.
It cured
my cramp effectively within half an hour. It totally replaced menstrual
painkillers that I used to.
No more
applying “Cap Lang Balsem Gosok” on my stomach today. Korea Ginseng menstrual
successfully heated my stomach. I felt relief and comfortable.
After
that, I realized it only available in Hong Kong pharmacy outlets. Malaysia in
fact quite hard to find. OMG…
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29 October 2016, third times cooking this corns & carrot porridge. Feeling proud of myself able to cook such creamy textures of porridge like I had in Hong Kong. I finally mastered this type of skills.
That's all. Hopefully I managed to sustain this writing voices post for incoming months!
